Stress Relief

It's amazing how even though I've heard it, known it, and even blogged about it, I still am fickle in my walk with the Lord and sometimes don't rely on Him. In the midst of everything I have to do on a daily basis, I forget to turn to God and say " I take your yoke." Last week, as you know, I went on Fall Retreat. It was a culmination of an extremely busy first 4 weeks, and so I was hoping that last week would be calmer and I could get back into the swing of things. But alas, I was still busy, still sick, and starting to feel burnt out. I even planned a long quiet time on Saturday to just spend time with the Lord. It was a great time, but come Monday when life got busy again, I was starting to get stressed out and burned out on my commitments. I just wanted to get away from everything for a while.

It wasn't until Tuesday night when I had 45 minutes to myself when I sat down with the Lord and said "I can't do it anymore. I need you. I want to be close to you again." And seriously, it was like God said "Finally. Now get some rest." and immediately I started feeling refreshed. Touché God. You are always there, waiting for us to come to You.

I need to stop forgetting about God's love and desire for me.

I pulled out My Utmost for His Highest and read the day's devotional. It was called "The 'Go' of unconditional identification" and the verse was Mark 10:21.

Jesus . . . said to him, ’One thing you lack: Go your way, sell whatever you have and give to the poor . . . and come, take up the cross, and follow Me’

Chambers says "Jesus’ primary consideration is my absolute annihilation of my right to myself and my identification with Him, which means having a relationship with Him in which there are no other relationships." (September 28th)

I need to give up everything to the Lord. Nothing I do is of myself. It is all His. I must stop trying to do things on my own and let Him take over. As Carrie Underwood said it well, "Jesus, take the wheel." I desire oneness with Him. All of my "busyness" must be given up to Him. I still have my commitments, but when they are on the Lord's shoulders and not my own, I won't be stressed, and I won't get burned out. Why do I always forget this again? Oh right, because I haven't been made perfect yet. Jesus, can you come back soon?

The other thing is that I started rereading The Pursuit of God with some guys in AGO, and it was a great reminder of how I need to desire God. I mean, once you start desiring Him, the passion just increases. The prayer at the end of chapter one is fantastic (like always), and it's a prayer asking for a desire to desire God. It has been a good prayer for me this week. I don't need to pursue God and Cru, or God and AGO, or God and my friends. I just need God. That's the only thing that matters. I need to follow hard after him.