Nevertheless, this frigid weather got me thinking about seasons, and not just weather seasons, but spiritual seasons as well. God doesn't always coincide worldly seasons with my spiritual ones, but this time I think He did.
Over the summer, I was on a spiritual high. I had plenty of time to spend with the Lord and expand my spiritual knowledge. In addition, I was having a bunch of deep spiritual conversations with friends even though I was living in good ole' Fallbrook. When I got back to school, I thought this trend would continue...I think I forgot how busy I am during the school year, and so my God time began getting neglected. This, compounded with the transition into senior year, put me into a spiritual funk; a dry season if you will.
Dry seasons with God are never fun. You know (and are told) that God is always beside you and is working for your good, but you don't see it. I felt like I wasn't growing spiritually, and I definitely wasn't spending time with God because I lacked desire and motivation. I was getting frustrated easily, and became completely cynical about everything. If you had a good idea, I could probably give you 10 reasons why it was a bad idea and would fail. Yeah, not a good time for me.
I was so ready to get out of it, and so I was looking to the World Race as my escape. I was semi-regretting not applying for the January race so I could just graduate in December. But alas, God had bigger and better plans for me.
Last week, three things occurred.
1) The August race was revealed.
2) The weather got colder.
3) I actually had some free time.
God was ready to bring me out of my dry season. I got re-excited about the July race and the adventures God has in store for me in my future. I started spending more time with the Lord, and lo and behold, my attitude started getting better. Finally, with my extended free time, I was able to start reading again and just having time to process more.
God is so good. Despite me feeling like He was nowhere near me, He was definitely right there. It was my pride and selfishness that kept me from looking to Him. It's easy to be stoked on life when God is continually rocking you, but when you feel like He isn't around, you must keep speaking truth into your heart and the hearts of those around you. Don't let the devil convince you otherwise.
Lord, thank You for bringing me out of the dry season and into this new season of spiritual growth. You are so good to me, it is unfathomable. You are bigger and better than any dry season or trial that I could every face. Take my pride away from me, and mold my attitude. Thank you for always being with me, even if I'm not seeking You. In Jesus name, Amen
In other news, I'm reading a book called Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire that is fantastic and really making me rethink the way I live my last semester here. Except a blog about it soon. Also, I submitted my world race application today so be expecting A LOT more blogs about that soon. Basically God is stirring in me again, and I want to share it with all of you.
I'll end with a question. What is God showing/teaching/growing you in your life right now? Are you going through a dry season or growing season?
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